Sili's Soliloquy On #BlissDom

To bliss or not to bliss - that is the question. Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer

The slings and arrows of outrageous conferences

Or take flights against a sea of Tweets and by opposing, end them. To die, to sleep --

No more -- and by sleep to say we end

The baggy eyes and the thousand natural shocks

That hugging is heir to. 'Tis a consummation

Devoutly wished. To die, to sleep --

To sleep -- perchance past 7 a.m.: ay, there's the rub,

For in that sleep of happy delirium what dreams may come

When we have danced off the stage,

Must we give pause?  There's the respect

That makes friendships of so long life.

For who would bear the whips and scorns of blogging,

Th' Facebook wrong, the proud woman's business cards

The pangs of unanswered tweets, the wifi's delay,

The insolence of a home office, and the spurns

That the patient merit of th' bad pitches takes,

When she herself might quietus make

Perhaps with a karaoke machine? Who would high heels bear,

To grunt and sweat under the bag of swag,

But that the dread of something after the flight,

The undiscovered awesomeness, from whose keynote speakers

No dry eyes return, puzzles the will,

And makes us rather bear those ills we have as we pack,

Than fly to others that we know not of?

Thus conscience does make cowards of us all,

And thus the native hue of of Instagram photos is sicklied o'er with the pale case of thought,

And enterprise of great pitches and moments,

Their products stuffed in our bags turn to gifts

And lose the name of swag. -- Soft you now,

The most beloved BlissDom! -- Conference nymph, in thy orisons

Be all my techy gadgets remembered.

Have you booked your flight yet? This time last year, I started looking for roommates, flight and a BlissDom ticket. After a little prayer, I found it all and it changed my life.

Hope to see you there!

On Writing

I love this quote:

In the last few weeks I've had to really think hard about what it is that I'm doing on this blog. What my messages are, where I want to go. It started with the redesign and the rewrite of my about me page. And inevitably it has come to a head as I prepare to be a community leader at BlissDom. I'm helping lead the writing community.

I started this blog because I've always considered myself a writer. And blogging gave me an outlet to share with you my writing and of course, my heart. But I think that towards the end of last year, I lost my way. Got caught up with "making money" and getting ambassadorships or working with specific brands.

Recently, after much work, conversations and emails I was told one of the brands I thought I'd be a "shoe in" for passed me up. I was upset only because I felt that I'd invested a lot of time with this brand and it amounted to nothing. It's that blogger warning of "don't ever work for free or they'll never pay you."

But there's a lesson in everything.  And here I am. Tired of fretting about my numbers, my followers, my likes. Remembering my passion for writing. Because if you weren't reading this post, I'd still be writing.

And that's the thing about writers. We must never really forget our passion for the craft. We stray because, well, that's just what happens sometimes. But inevitably we return to center.

And my center is pretty clear. I love to write. I actually think I'm good at it. I won my first writing award in the 6th grade and I've never looked back. I published a poetry book in college and one a few years back (feel free to purchase a copy). I edited that book. I did the cover, I set the type. And I loved every minute of it because it allowed me a way to connect. With my words, I connected with all that would read it and I loved that.

I have a lot to say (surprise, surprise) and so I'm going to get back to doing what I love. Getting the most out of my words. I'm going to get back to writing for myself because in doing that I connect with you best.

Have you ever lost your way and had to right your course? How did you do it?